Wishing For What I Don't Have
Isn't that how you always are? Sitting around wondering, "what if," "maybe it would be," "when will?" I guess I analyze situations too much. Lately, I seem to be making more rational decisions then spur of the moment. I still have my fair share of stupid/crazy decisions. I don't think they will ever go away, but the ratio has definitely swung in the direction of rational.
How does this relate to right now? I was suppose to travel north this afternoon. We planned on doing up New Brunswick tonight, and head into the City tomorrow night. I really love the City. Generally, I love most cities, but New York City has it all. So, here it is all together. First, I decided not to go this weekend:( I really need to get my belongings settled in Annapolis. It is annoying being 80% moved into the house. Second, I don't live in NYC. This is a rational decision. A crazy one would have been, no more Georgia Avenue, where do I want to live? Pack it up and go to NYC. I would have been dirt poor. Instead, I found a good job at home. I'm doing well, and being patient. I'll get there eventually.
I've laid it out on the table. As I sit at work on a Friday, I want what I don't have. Human nature it is. I have been able to curb this want in a rational direction for now, but for how much longer? We shall just have to wait and see.
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hmmmm...yes, we all constantly dream about other things, places, etc. that we believe will enhance our lives. Your totally right, humans by nature are restless and are always searching for the next best thing, but no experience in this life will ever completley satisfy that wish for something more. Many people never even know how much they truly have until they have lost it. being rational comes with growing older, its good to always keep a certain level of spontaneity in your life, but making rational decisions now will enable you to make less rational ones in the future...
